Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Steep Climbs and Head Wind: Life beyond the bike and blessings unimaginable
Boy has it been a long time since I've taken to this blog. Part of me is conflicted about even doing so as I used to think that this page should just be reserved for a bike ride I went on once. I'm coming to realize however, that a bike ride isn't really all that I may have hoped it to be or as interesting as others tell me they imagine it to be.
Don't get me wrong, I understand that the ride from Times Square to Florence, Oregon was something much bigger than I am. It was a rite of passage of sorts, a test of my will that proved to me that you really can eat an elephant if you take it one bite at a time. Still I understood very early on that a ride like the one I did shouldn't really inflate an ego so much as humble it. Countless days I found myself worn down by hills that looked barely like any kind of incline. I grew frustrated by something as small as which patch of ground to sleep on. The ride showed me the best in me, but just as clearly, the worst I have to offer as a young man.
But when that ride concluded there on the cold sand of a foggy beach, there was no feeling of finality. For the ride perhaps, but not the adventurous life that I knew I had become indoctrinated into by it. The truth is that as I sat on that train from Portland back to Cleveland, my mind was spinning as it processed the completion of one dream and beginning of the next.
To understand that dream, I have to share with you one of the most central themes of the bike ride that you may or may not have been aware of. From the very outset, there was one rider who didn't make the journey physically but who I took with me every inch of the way.
We met in 2010 at school on a softball field during an intramural game played on a cold night in Bethany, OK. When I graduated we had been dating a year and as I stepped out into the unknown of life after college, I knew I wanted to find a way to make life be with her.
There were times when my riding companion would tell me that he was so glad he was single because of the freedom it brought, the ability to do whatever he wanted without regard for the needs of anyone else. I understood what he was saying, but never agreed. Every day I pedaled as hard as I could so that I could possibly find a McDonalds or somewhere else with wifi so I could call her. I knew that there wasn't a day of the trip that I woudn't have gladly traded him in for her, to be able to share in an adventure together. Each incredible sunset out on the plains, I wished she was there. Every steep descent as I zipped around turns and twists with the wind in my face and a smile of a child, I wished she was feeling the same with me. As I crested Togwotee Pass and saw the silhouette of that beautiful mountain range shrouded in clouds in the distance, I knew it was special, but I felt I was missing out in not having her beside me to see it together. And as I set foot in that sand I couldn't help but feel that the next destination to shoot for was wherever we could be together.
I had no idea it would take me two years to get there.
The next chapter in my journey was a true test. I youth pastored at a small church in Cleveland, OH where I fell in love with a small handful of people and teens, trying to seek out God with them each week. It proved to be a year with blessings but also trials as I'm sure all years are. In the end I couldn't handle the financial strain of paying student loans on my salary along with the emotional abuse that came from a small minority. I was afforded an opportunity to begin a one year training program in human resources with a large corporation that would instantly double my salary and allow me to be the kind of provider (or at least not a burden) that I felt she deserved for me to be. I went in excited and figured that by the end of the year we would get married and be together forever. I sometimes live in a fantasy world where I don't account for real life.
The next nine months were again a mixed bag, which is part of life, but I found myself wondering if I was really doing what I was supposed to be doing. The paycheck every other week had become my only real motivator and life as a trainee was lonely as I was relocated every few months to a new place where I didn't know anyone and everyone knew I was only going to be there for a short time anyway. Much like I had questioned whether the bike trip was worth all the other opportunities I had to give up during those months, I wondered if making money was worth not being where I wanted to be.
Our visits were few and far between. Leading into Easter I had been sent from Chicago to Detroit for a week and on Good Friday I decided to use it as a travel day but instead of returning to Chicago I made straight away for Tulsa, OK. After 14 hours of driving without tipping off that I was in a car, I arrived in Owasso, OK where she worked and booked a hotel room for the night. The next morning I got a haircut and headed to a florist to get her some flowers which I slipped under the windshield wipers of her car before hiding in my car across the parking lot at the bank she works at.
Another visit came for a friend's wedding in August. Having not been included as a groomsmen I probably wouldn't have spent the money on a plane ticket and just passed along a gift and congratulations but an excuse to see her for a few days was all I needed to justify it. Other than walking up with her to receive communion from the newlyweds, I never spoke to them but got a few days to be with my best friend.
By November we had grown tired. After an initial year away from each other I had followed it with another 9 months all so I could make enough money to think that I was okay to start a life with, but our lives had been running parallel for so long that it was difficult to see them ever intersecting again. The weekend of my birthday (November 17th) she came up for a visit to spend it with me. We explored Chicago the first day, drove to Niagara Falls the second day and then on to my parents' house after a pit stop for a surprise dinner with one of her best friends along the way, and finally back to Kalamazoo, MI for a dinner at my apartment, limo ride to Grand Rapids, and Melting Pot for dessert. On Monday I took her back to Chicago for her flight back home but I wished more than ever that she wouldn't get on the plane or that I could get on it with her.
On the way back from Chicago to Kalamazoo I got a phone call for a job offer. It was a temporary position that paid less and offered no benefits, but it sounded perfect because it was in Tulsa. I accepted on the spot and the next day I was on a conference call to resign to my boss at corporate headquarters. I spent the rest of the week packing up my apartment and on Friday my mom and sister picked me up and took me back to Bedford where I loaded up my rusty car with whatever I could and headed to Collinsville, OK where I got in at 3am after stopping at Walmart to get the best flowers I could find at that hour.
I've been living in Oklahoma for a month now and as I reflect on this year I can safely say that 2013 was a pivotal one for me. I learned a lot about myself, the shortcomings of being a person trying to make it in this world, but the blessings in giving over those failings and being happy in God. I don't have a lot of money. I drive a rusty car that's just under 200,000 miles on it. I have more student loan debt than I know what to do with and I have no idea what I'm good enough at to do for the rest of my life.
And I've never been happier. I have the love of a woman who makes the bad days bearable, the good days great, and the great days incredible. And so although I know a huge hill stands in front of me, and probably a long stretch of plains with insane head wind, this time I have her beside me and that makes all the difference.
I pray God blesses your lives in ways unimaginable this year. Make 2014 be a year lived boldly for others and let them pour love back in to you.
Blessings,
Matt
Thursday, October 6, 2011
After Trip Thoughts: Final Spokes4or Post Ever (You're Welcome)
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Oregon: The End of a Journey
Thank you for joining me. I told you we would make it eventually.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Idaho: You say potato, I say awesome!
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Grand Teton National Park
My Review of Novara Safari Bike - 2011
Novara Safari is the ultimate adventure-touring bike, built for dirt roads, heavy loads and exploring new abodes.
I Stand Corrected
Pros: Comfortable, Responsive, Good Geometry, Handles Well, Sturdy
Best Uses: Long Distance Touring, Commuting, Casual Riding
Describe Yourself: Avid Cyclist
Was this a gift?: No
I originally wrote a review of the 2011 model prior to taking it on tour. After logging 600 miles of pre-tour riding, I toured from New York City to the Oregon coast fully loaded with panniers on front and back. While I did make some alterations to the bike (Tubus rear rack; Jandd front rack; clipless pedals) the bike would have performed just fine without them.
Some of the best features of this bike are the grip shifting, wide tires, and trekking handlebar. The shifting is precise and allows you to run through a range of gears quickly and accurately. The tires can go up to a 45mm and at one point on tour I replaced one of them with a 42mm. This allows for a nice smooth ride at the cost of some speed (touring is slow anyway) and for a guy my size (240lbs prior to trip) having a sturdy tire under a heavy load was important. The tires it comes with are nothing special. I would ride them until they start producing flats but then replace them with Schwalbe or Vittoria tires for less fuss.
The handlebars are great because they do allow for a multitude of different hand positions which is crucial when you're on the bike for hours each day. As with any bike, much is personal preference so upon purchasing this product, give yourself some time to tinker with the saddle height, saddle tilt, and handlebar tilt to dial it in just right.
I will also note that under heavy load this bike is a tank, and not in a bad way. While it was difficult to get up hills, the gearing is enough to allow you to gear down into a manageable gearing that enables you to keep pedaling while the bike is moving slowly. Once you get the bike moving it likes to stay very steady and can be a joy to ride on the flats once you pick up some momentum, yet this bike is very responsive when you want it to be and still very reliable while flying down steep hills (reached upwards of 45mph).
All in all this bike is a dream and I must change from my original 4-star review simply because for the price this bike does everything you would hope it would do. Even though those I rode with were on more expensive bikes (Surly LHT and Fuji Touring) I felt my bike was better for me personally than their models. Consider this bike a dark horse and give it a test ride.
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Thursday, September 1, 2011
Douglas, WY - Grand Teton National Park...Low Population Because the Wind Blew Everyone Away!
*Due to being so far behind (you'll read about the reason eventually) I'm attempting to catch up through an abridged series of posts. Stick with me now, we'll get to the coast before too long!
Douglas, WY – Grand Teton National Park (Jackson, WY)
The day out of Douglas was personally one of the top 5 most difficult days for me personally. I should explain it in pretty basic terms.
-Wyoming is windy.
-Wider objects produce more wind resistance, making it harder to move.
-I’m a significantly wider person than my riding companion.
-I went a lot slower.
This wind was unlike any we encountered all trip as it either hit you head on, almost stopping you dead in your tracks as you tried to pedal uphill along the shoulder of a busy highway, or violently from the side, almost knocking you over onto the ground. I struggled and this was the day that I actually posted about wondering whether or not it was really worth it to continue going or not. If you’ve read my posts you may not know exactly which one I’m referring to, as it seems that I often had doubts like this. I’m referring to the short post I wrote because I actually posted it while standing on the side of the road that day out of Douglas, all the while praying that someone would offer to give me a ride into our destination of Casper where we would have a rest day with Jared’s friend Matt Roark.
You may wonder why I kept riding if I seemingly always wanted to not be doing so. I’ll explain that in my after trip thoughts when I get to that post.
Sadly nobody stopped to ask if I was alright and as daylight kept burning with me gaining very little ground, I was beginning to become discouraged. Then as luck would have it a motorcycle tourist stopped to check on me. You’re probably wondering why I would be excited about a motorcyclist stopping for me. Well, I wasn’t excited so you’re clearly a good critical thinker. A motorcyclist can do very little to help a stranded cyclist aside from offer food, drink, or a cell phone. All I wanted was a ride into a town that felt too far away so I told him I was fine and off he went. Long story short, after waiting for two hours on the side of the road with my front wheel removed and held up (supposedly a distress signal for cyclists), nobody stopped. This was particularly discouraging because we knew there was literally nothing between Douglas and Casper, save for a few ranches, and during those couple hours we saw countless empty pickup trucks that we almost knew for a fact were heading to where we needed to go. My faith in humanity was almost dried up despite all earlier encounters (or rather, my bias toward the East being superior to the West was becoming stronger).
Then Jared’s friend Matt came out to pick us up and miraculously save us. His house is on top of Mount Casper and after driving up in his truck through steep switchbacks I was grateful for not having to ride. The next couple days were spent relaxing at Matt’s house, going to a county fair, being treated to meals out by an awesome man of God, and feeling adopted yet again by another person who was not either of our parents. This is one of the greatest joys of riding a bicycle across country.
After departing Casper we spent the next night camping in a roadside rest area that explicitly did not allow camping, but after a call to the police we received permission as it is understandable that sometimes you just have to camp in the middle of nowhere when confined by the limits of a bicycle. From there we made a memorable stop in Riverton, WY where we stayed with Pastor Eric of the Nazarene Church in town. Eric is a really solid young pastor who seems to be moving the church in a good direction under God’s leadership and while being destroyed by mosquitoes at his softball game was not quite as enjoyable as I initially thought it would be, getting to talk to a guy who is not too much older (relatively) to us and who is doing ministry in the church was encouraging. I’ll admit that prior to talking to Pastor Eric, I was somewhat scared, okay I mean terrified, of a life in ministry, and yet I could not help but feel pulled back in to this irresistible calling. Pastor Eric made me realize that being young was not an acceptable excuse. I’ll share more on this train of thought later though.
Leaving out of Riverton, the theme for me was the stunning first views of snow capped peaks and the growing terror of potential bear’s with insatiable appetites painted a beautiful contrast in the way I viewed this seemingly mystical land that I knew I was just outside the proverbial golden gates of. The day out of Riverton also was memorable because it was our first encounter with our own growing sense of adventure after it began to come at a cost of increased danger. How so? Well riding into bear country is in and of itself a dangerous act when you are on a bicycle because to the bear you are a tasty treat that moves just fast enough to make it fun to chase, but slow enough that they don’t have to work too hard to make it worth the calories. We decided to take it to another level on this day however as we not only did not make arrangements for where to sleep (it’s important to not leave food out so that took away stealth camping being a safe option) and we weren’t making good time on the way to the next actual town of Dubois (Dew-boys with a cowboy twang). So as we hit a small “town” with a closed gas station and library we were forced with the decision of whether to just camp outside a church without permission or press on to Dubois through the dark. We’re adventurous (dumb) by now remember? Guess which option we chose.
So riding through the cover of complete darkness, up through mountains with the fear of bear attack, Jared and I made our way to Dubois. We got some stunning views of the sunset as it disappeared beneath the mountains and then we were left with only the light of the stars, our battery powered bicycle lights, and the headlights of cars flying past at only a couple feet away. There were times I wondered if we would have had better odds of survival wearing meat pajamas and camping outside of a bear den (where bears would naturally be too distracted playing chess and smoking pipes in their smoking jackets in a den furnished with people skin rugs).
We did make it eventually, all the worse for wear. Our butts were sore, our hands were numb, and we experienced the coldest temperatures all trip in the higher altitudes. Thankfully we had no idea where we would sleep that night (sarcasm). The K.O.A. campground in town wanted $28 for a primitive (ground and bear box) site so we decided that the Stage Coach Inn would be a better option if we could get it for just a little bit more. Having grown up in a family that is almost twice as large as almost what the travel industry considers a normal sized family, I picked up on the trick of smuggling some people in for a cheaper rate. This is unethical, but we were desperate and weren’t really willing to pay twice as much for a room just for an extra bar of hotel soap, so Jared went in to negotiate for a room with the friendly woman in the front office. She asked him what he could afford and agreed to give him the room for the $50 he and I agreed we were willing to spend. It was luxurious to have a room of our own with a bed and shower and television we could watch (I squandered this opportunity by watching an episode of “Martin,” the “show” starring Martin Lawrence that relies on him having freakishly large ears to garner laughs from the audience).
The next morning we got up and walked to a diner that we both enjoyed. I particularly liked the skillet they had, while Jared particularly liked the waitress with musculature that was clearly either a result of her profession or what lead her to the profession in the first place (not saying she was manly, but the girl could carry some plates). After we were full and Jared was temporarily in love we headed back to pack up our stuff before checkout. While riding out of the parking lot the nice lady from the office stopped Jared and in a sort of motherly blend of guilt and compassion, told Jared that he “duped” her. He smiled and she smirked and when asked whether she would have given the same rate for both of us she said of course not, but that she hoped we had a safe ride and to take care of ourselves. Wyoming doesn’t have many people and generally speaking I hate the state just as much as South Dakota, but most of the people we did meet were saints. It was almost as if they were trying to make up for their lack of numbers.
Leaving Dubois was exciting because Jared knew what was ahead of us and I could only dream of what it might actually be like. In many ways I felt a special blessing never having been to most of the places we rode through. It reminded me of my first Spring Break road trip to visit my grandmother in Huntington Beach, California when I took Jared and a friend also named Matt. Jared and I had been to an ocean and even California’s coast specifically, but Matt had never seen one. It was awesome seeing how much that wonderous ocean meant to him and it was something neither Jared nor I could really fully appreciate or understand, that is, until I finally saw the Tetons…
…To Be Continued…